Sunday, December 31, 2006

Another perspective:

He also has a very good point. He actually looked at this from outside the box. I salute him. Check out what I am talking about here.

The news is irritating me...

Ok, so I will quote some things from this article that are really getting on my nerves:

* ""We wanted him to be executed on a special day," National Security adviser Mouwafak al-Rubaie told state-run al-Iraqiya television reports AP" Speacial being Eid????

* "
Officials wanted to reserve the occasion for Saddam alone." Why? Did they fear he might get offended if others were hanged after him?

* "
President Bush said in a statement issued from his ranch in Texas that bringing Saddam to justice "is an important milestone on Iraq's course to becoming a democracy that can govern, sustain and defend itself, and be an ally in the war on terror."" A few questions to Mr. Bush: Who and when will they hang you? Will you go after Saudi next, seeing as it has no human rights to speak of, and absolutely lacks anything even resembling democracy? You want Iraq to join in the war against terror? Is that before, or after the different sects finish each other off through the civil war? Umm.. who will they fight anyways? Themselves or Afghanistan... or will you come up with another "Axes of evil"???

* "
"This is the end of an era in Iraq," al-Nauimi said from Doha, Qatar. "The Baath regime ruled for 35 years. Saddam was vice president or president of Iraq during those years. For Iraqis, he will be very well remembered. Like a martyr, he died for the sake of his country."" Since when did a tyrant suddenly become a martyr? Granted they had no right to kill him, but HELLO!!! How can they make him into a victim? The only thing he is a victim of, is Arab treason... no more, no less. It is something every Arab politician is used to by now, so i don't see how it could have affected him.


A tribute to Mr. Yellow

From here

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Eid Ad7a Mbarak

I miss my family.... =(

May you all have a wonderful Eid, spent with those you love the most.

On the big, bad tyrant being gone...

There is something fishy about this whole thing. something does not seem right. I mean, they never set the date for his execution, and then, within 24 hours, the date had been set and he had been killed. Also, I do not believe he died fairly. When I say that, I mean that I do not believe he died on the hands of Iraqis. (Remember that I do not approve of Capital punishment, but if somebody has to do it, it should be the people involved, NOT the American scum that is there). The Americans went into Iraq, displaced him, took him to jail then court, ordered elections, allowed the new government to form, is STILL there and not doing much about the civil war they created. Saddam was a tyrant, was crazy, was an asshole, but with him around, the civil war would not have taken place. Plus, who do the Americans think they are anyway to do what they did? I STILL can not believe they were welcomed with open arms. Kind of reminds me when the Taliban took over in Afghanistan. Did they not do so with the aid of the Americans? Were they not trained by them, given weapons from them? So, Taliban rolls into Afghanistan to free it from the "Communist Russians", then take over as Gods, are STILL there and now fighting the Americans.

God, history is filled with so much blood. Anyways, back to Saddam, another flaw in the story is that it is Eid. Even if the Shia's celebrate Eid one day after the Sunni's, it is still a holy day, it is the day when all the hijaj stand on Mt. Arafe and pray. It is EID!!!! It is the one were Muslims celebrate God's gift to the prophet Abraham as he was about to sacrifice his only son for God. God sent him a sheep instead. It is the day when God refused the sacrificing of a human soul in his name. Yet, here we are, sacrificing one. I am not saying that he did not deserve it, please, do not get me wrong... All I am saying is that this way, a right has not been made, not to him, not to the people. He should have lived. He should have lived to see himself in a dungeon, tortured, barely fed. He should have lived to see himself treated as a dog, living like one also. He should have lived in nasty conditions until God chose to end his life. This was too humane... and too inhumane.

So, the soul has been sacrificed, and the sheep (ALL the Middle East, including Iraq) is still being fed and fattened before it too, is killed.

Below is a video from Al-Arabiya showing Saddams' final moments, leading up to when they put the rope around his neck....


They just hanged Saddam?!!

I'm in shock, more on that later when I can actually process what is happening...

Friday, December 29, 2006

On dreams...

You know the saying "sometimes you miss someone so much that you want to pluck them from your dreams and hug them for real"??

Well, that happened to me last night. I missed someone very much, and I dreamt that that person was actually there. It was so real, that i actually woke up expecting that person to walk back into the room. Expecting to see, smell and hear that person. However, it did not happen, and I felt disappointed.

On the upside of things...

My headache is finally gone.



I do not know why, but I just thought of something. I have been living in my apartment since August 2002, that is over 4 years, and to this day I have NEVER had to change the kitchen lights. They never went out. Ever.

Is that not weird?

Today sucked the big one...

... and hard!!!

First, I wake up to find out that the one friend I was counting on spending ALL of January with wont be here until the 22nd. Which means that will give me only 9 days to hang out with her. I will not say anymore about this as i am totally upset about it.

Afterwards, I fins out that there has been a mix-up in my graduation ring delivery and I got somebody else's' ring. I called the company, left a message and have yet to hear from them.

3 hours ago I got a massive headache and it is till there.

Crap... I miss C, I wish she was here right now...

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Saddam news

So now Saddam wants to be seen as a hero, a martyr?

Although I think he sucks, and that the oxygen he breathes is too good for him, i do not believe anyone, not even the state, has the right to end somebodys' life. Capital punishment does nothing, in my opinion, to obtain justice. My argument is as follows:

If someone tortured and killed all those people, would it not be better to just let him live out his whole life, in a small cell in some prison, with nothing he was ever used to and no chance of appealing? Would it not be better to let that person lead a miserable life, one that will maybe mirror that of those that survived his lunacy?

Another point is that well, life is precious. It is a gift from God and therefore, He should chose when to end it. We should guard it and hold onto it. Therefore, even if it were a tyrant such as Saddam, I believe he should be left to live. What good will it do anyone if he was hanged? Or even given the lethal injection? Or poisoned? All these are too humane and too fast for him. They can not kill him by putting him in a gas chamber, or by exposing him to nuclear material. He will never feel the pain he inflicted on others, and even if he did, he will only feel it for a few seconds before he dies. Whereas if they let him live in the conditions I stated earlier, he will feel the pain, he will suffer, and he will wish he DID die.

Ahhh, I am so against capital punishment. I think life should not be taken by anyone, not even by the state. Righting a wrong with another wrong does not make it right. No human being should kill, for any reason what so ever. Period.

miss you girls

i miss you C and L. hope you guys are having the time of your lives.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006


I am bored.

Monday, December 25, 2006

On the way to overcome things:

'This is the way of peace: "Overcome evil with good, falsehood with truth, and hatred with love."

- Peace Pilgrim


Merry Christmas everyone, may it be filled with health and happiness.

Wallet Update:

I got it back.

End of discussion.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

On rethinking stuff..

Wow, it is amazing what constitutes an emergency on different peoples' parts. It is surprising just how much our priorities are different. It is also surprising how far and long we will go to obtain them or get them accomplished.

I think it is time I rethink my priorities and my emergencies.... I need to accept it as the ultimate truth and move on before this whole thing leads to any casualties.


Saturday, December 23, 2006

I am STUPID!!!

Why, you might ask? Well, to put it this way... i forgot my wallet with one of my friends. I did not forget it in the apartment or in the car or anything like that. No, I forgot it with him at his work. I gave him my wallet to put in his laptop bag because i was too hungover to carry it. Then, I left. As simple as that. Worst part?? It took me a good hour or so to even realize it. How stupid is that? Of course, it is almost 10 am the next day and I still have no wallet. What that means is that I am card-less, cashless and ID-less. Guess I have to stay at home until I get it back....

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

The sad truth of Lebanon

This video reflects the sad truth...

Maybe if they stop religion from interfering in their daily lives, they could finally unite...

Monday, December 18, 2006

The road leading to a mental breakdown

Something is not right today... I do not feel well. My stomach is hurting me, I feel sick and very lightheaded. I also feel down. I was alright until I bumped into a friend of mine, Danny. He started asking me about "what I was going to do for the rest of my life", "where I am headed" and so forth. After that conversation, I just felt sick. I have been ignoring these feelings, ducking these conversations, hiding from reality.

Crap... reality caught up with me. Time is running and passing me by, no matter how much I try, I do not have enough hours everyday to do the things I want to do. I want to chill/relax/socialize/be alone/have fun/cry/watch movies/study/read books/go out for walks/say goodbye... that is a shitload of things to do in so little time.

How am I supposed to say goodbye to four years of my life? Four years that contributed to the person I am today. How am I supposed to easily flip this page and start an entirely different one? How am I supposed to do all this while forcing a smile on my face and holding back the tears in my eyes? How do you say goodbye to the most important and dear people in your life?

The hardest part of leaving here is not the leaving, its the moving on. I have formed my own little family here, the bond I have with them is so strong that I know distance can not break it. However, what is hard is the fact that I have to pick up and leave. I have to start a new life, a new me has to be born. I have to try and make the best of it. In short, I have to learn t live without those people in my life. I will no longer see them everyday, I will no longer speak to them everyday... I will no longer go for a walk and bump into them. I will no longer go to my coffee shop, aka office, sit there and see them all. I will no longer do many things with them. Worst of all, I will no longer hang out with them.

My biggest fear is that when I leave here I know things will never be the same again. I know my friendship bonds are strong, but damn it, distance and time do take a toll on things. Sooner or later, we will all have different experiences and the things we have in common will be only a blast from the past. Another one of my fears, and this is my insecurity speaking, is that I wont be missed as much as I will miss them. They will still have each other, what will I have? Memories... yes, the memories I have are great ones, memories that are filled with everything from laughter to tears, joys and sorrows... those were great times... will I still be able to remember them in 5 years? 10 years? 20?

Leaving here is hard for one other reason... it is the not knowing when I will be back. It could be in three months, it could be in 12, it could even be in years for all that I know. Will I be able to survive that long? and if I do, will I be alright?

What is to become of me... what does the future hold for me... these are the 2 simplest questions I have and I need them to be answered... only time will tell.

My encounter with the Niqab

Ok, so I know being a Muslim girl who was born and raised in the Middle East would probably mean that the following is something that should not have surprised me at all... but it did.

I was waiting for the elevator to go downstairs in my building, it opens, and what do i find inside? A niqabi woman. Like yes, I know, God told us women to wear the hijab, to dress conservatively and so on... but why the niqab?

It finally hit me... if I, as an Arab, a Muslim, a Female can't accept it, how can most of the world? Why do so many woman opt to cover their faces? Their sign of dignity?

Well anyways, I think she sensed all this going through my mind because when she started to get out on my floor, I told her "this is the 3rd"... she gives me the nastiest look and says "you are going down, no?" SO............. I give her a nasty look in return, get into the elevator and close it, without responding to her. Now, my question is, does she live on my floor, or who does she know on my floor, and, did she get out of the elevator coz she did not like the vibe I was giving off? I forgot to mention that when I went into the elevator, the L button was pressed... maybe a mistake??????????

Sunday, December 17, 2006

O friends, where art though?!

L and C... where are you guys? You are not even updating your blogs. Ok, L i understand, exams and all... but C... WHERE ARE ARE????

Saturday, December 16, 2006


Whenever I sign into this blog of mine, I get a notification stating that I have one unpublished comment. So, I go to the comments section to see it and publish it, and I find nothing. This has been the case for over a month now, and it is starting to annoy me....

On another note, only a few days separate me from my last exam. The one exam standing in my way between being uneducated and becoming unemployed. I should seriously start studying for this class, it is just that I don't want to!! I will... today. I will force myself to. it is only one exam, and i might as well kick ass in it, right?

That is it for now... I'll probably be back later to blog about something or the other.

So true...

" That men do not learn very much from the lessons of history is the most important of all the lessons of history. " - Aldous Huxley

The reason for the above? Humans are stupid, selfish, ignorant, arrogant...

I could....

I could talk about the civil war that is about to erupt in Palestine and how sad it really is...

I could talk about Rumsfield leaving the Pentagon for good and what that might mean to the world and the Americans....

I could talk about Annan leaving the UN and Ki-Moon taking over....

But i will not. I will talk about global warming. It is December 15th, in Montreal, and it is 7 degrees outside. It is like spring. it is gorgeous. What is wrong in this picture, you might ask? Well, to begin with, it is mid-December, it is Montreal and we are getting screwed. We are supposed to have mountains of snow by now. We are supposed to be freezing our asses off... this is not good. No matter how beautiful it is or how lovely and comfortable it is. This is no good.

I could research it properly and tell you why it is not good, but if you can't figure it out for yourself, then you are ignorant. If you can't be bothered to look it up, then you are lazy, and if you know and you still do not care, well then... why should I care about educating you?

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Meen erhabi?

C, this is for you hun, for being the honorary Palestinian that you are...

Girls= Evil?

Are we realllly this bad?


Soooo true...

Click here to laugh your ass off.

Make sure your speakers are on

A step closer...

I went to get my graduation pics taken. It felt weird to put on the cap and gown. It felt good, like it was a statement that I am done. I accomplished something. I survived the four years. I did it.


Monday, December 11, 2006

On people

Who would have thought that a person I only met on a few occasions, someone who I have had limited interaction with, someone who I have never spoken to unless for formal and business reasons will be the one person to actually give me good advice about my future?

It is really funny when people you hardly know have such an impact on your life and are willing and able to give you such great advice.........

Stolen from a friends' notes:

I think this is beautiful....

They like to tell us that we Palestinians are “too angry”
That the case for Palestine will never be heard
because we aren’t ‘civilized’

“Those arabs,” they say,
no diplomacy, too hot blooded, undemocratic,
violence flows naturally in their blood
- terrorist breeding, jihad leading, crazy matha-what!!-

And, those Palestinian women!
“so fuckin irrational”- I heard one say
about my sister and I- after a late night debate
at café no name, way back when it was café supreme

All because when I address the occupier,
racist, fascist, genocide supporting
Apartheid promoting motherfucker
I SCREAM- as opposed to talk
I don’t ask, I make demands
And my demands are clear
No Justice, No Peace!
No peace without justice
And, no justice or peace without the right of return

it’s a simple mathematic equation …
My dad won’t smile until he’s sitting under that olive tree
That same olive tree that he was sitting under on the day
they dragged him out of his home
kicking and screaming
holding onto the soil of Palestine for the last time,
yelling like Tawfik Zayyid,
“Don’t you see, my roots are entrenched deep in this earth”
My roots are entrenched deep in this earth…
Deep in this earth, our roots are entrenched…

And so it goes,
He wont smile until he returns
I wont smile until he smiles
My kids wont smile until I smile
And the vicious cycle begins…

But I don’t care,
because I’m raising the revolution
I’m raising the next generation of the revolution
Stone throwing,
middle finger waving, keffiyah wearing, poetry writing,
Ghassan Kanfani style kids mixed with a lot of Malcolm X,
Too cool, oops, I mean
too revolutionary for school kinda kids,
Too busy screaming out, “I just don’t give a fuck!” kinda kids

The kinda kids who won’t be peaceful
Who will always remain lethal
until they return

Saturday, December 9, 2006


I have so much on my mind at the moment, I do not know where to start. Somehow, suddenly, I was overwhelmed by this feeling of fatigue, of weakness. I want to give in, I want to give up. What for, I have no idea. I do not know what brought on this sudden change of moods or anything, all I know is that it happened.......

Sad... so sad...

Is this not sad?

"73 percent of undergraduate college students think they will be a millionaire before the age of 40. "

From here

Tuesday, December 5, 2006

Interesting quotes

* The ideal should be to be capable of loving a woman or a man; either, a human being, without feeling fear, restraint, or obligation... "

One's life has value so long as one attributes value to the life of others, by means of love, friendship, indignation and compassion.

Simone de Beauvoir

Note To C:

Well C... looks like no matter how hard we try to stop obsessing over M&M's, we never succeed... Too yummy for us....


Bye bye class...

Today is officially the last day of class I had as a Poli Sci student at Concordia University. It feels kind of odd knowing that this is it, the end. No more stressing over papers, cramming for exams, or pleading for extensions. No more quizzes, exams or presentations. This is it. One more final and I would then officially close this chapter in my life to start a new one. It is a scary idea, but I'll leave that for another post.

Anyways, so I am done, I wanted to celebrate, but no one is free to celebrate with me. It is B's mothers' b-day, A's got a paper to finish, Ro has to study for 5 exams, Ra left for holidays, C is in Brazil and L is in Ottawa. Like wtf is this luck? Oh well, at least C will be back sometime in January and we will celebrate everything then.

Monday, December 4, 2006

My new addiction...

My new addiction is this website. It is the new You tube for Arabs. it has great video quality, and granted that its not completely done yet, will be a great hit one day.

Side note: Ikbis = press

Snow, finallllly!


Saturday, December 2, 2006


I have recently made a few new friends, friends I know I will be in touch with forever more. People that have the same friendship traits I do, if not more. People who are similar to me in the kind of friends they are, if not better. However, this saddens me. Here I am, making new friends, when I know that i will leave in exactly 60 days. Here I am, doing what I did not want to do, and that is getting attached to people all over again. This, you see, is hard for me as I do not know if i can handle saying goodbye to more people. I do not know if I can handle all this.

I promised myself I will get detached, I will distance myself from people, but its not working. I like hanging out with these people, I like talking to them and everything...

This is life, i guess... you learn to accept what comes your way and move on... One thing is for certain though, i will do my best to not lose touch. As one very wise friend put it "its like family, even though you are far away, there is still a bond". This is my family away from my family there. This is the family that has seen me mature, has held me when I was scared, picked me up when I was down, made me see life from a whole new perspective and much, much more. I owe so much to them, and I shall never forget that.

i love you guys, although i do not say it very often.. and i will miss you like no other. The thought of it scares me, but i will hold on, and we shall meet again. THAT IS A PROMISE!

Friday, December 1, 2006


I am tired, I am sick of fighting, I give up.

I no longer want to think about it, talk about it, feel anything about it. I am done.

I am leaving and it has finally sunk in. No more sugar-coating, denials, lies or anything.