Saturday, September 25, 2010

On being human...

I have issues, I know that. I am working on resolving them, I promise. I am aware that the past is the past, and what has been done has been done. There is n point in dwelling over the past, no use crying over spilt milk. Just take a deep breath, let go and move on. All that I know, and so much more. However, every once in a while, I slip back into being your average human, and I dwell. I dive deep down where memories and thoughts I refuse to conjure up just come flooding up and out. Emotions I've been in control of escape me, and explode. I explode. One minute I am fine, the next? The next minute I am an insane person going having a fit about something that could not be changed. It is as simple and as complicated as that. I even have an out of body experience when that happens. I can see and hear myself saying/thinking things and I think to myself, "what the hell are you doing? Move on already!"

Why is moving on so hard?

Why is it harder to move on from things inflicted on us by our beloved ones?

Weird, yet so................................................................................................................................ human.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Winter is Coming

... but not soon enough!!! Spring of 2011 get your ass here ASAP

Me excited? Naaaaaaaaaaaaa, pffft! =S



A Song of a Broken Heart...

Almost a year ago, I was out at dinner with some people when the subject of "books" came up. So, we started talking and of the 15 people sitting with me at the table, 12 highly recommended  the epic fantasy book series by George R. R. Martin called a Song of Ice and Fire. It took me a few months till I got my hands on the first book called A Game of Thrones. Ever since then, it has been a ride to remember. The books are amazing. The creativity, writing, characters, kingdoms and everything is exactly what everyone at that dinner summed it to be: Epic and Awesome.

I just finished the fourth book in the series, and I have to say I am addicted. The second that book was over, I found myself googling the 5th book to see if it has been released here. To my dismay, however, the book has not been released yet. I went further in my research, trying to get a release date. To my horror, there isn't one yet. The 4th book was written in 2005, and the author had promised to have the 5th released within a year. A year turned into 2, then into 5.

Honestly, I am very disappointed. The author also extended the series to have a total of 7 book, but if it is taking him over 5 years to finish the 5th, how will he ever get to books 6 and 7? and WHEN? I need to know what will happen. It is such a politically saturated story with so many deceptions, manipulations, deaths and sadness. I need to read on and finish the series, otherwise, the characters will forever be tortured in my mind. What will happen to sweet Sansa who is so naive it is actually disturbing and annoying? What about Arya, who is a brave little girl that suddenly got propelled into a life she never anticipated? What about poor Bran who is trying to find answers, or Jon Snow the bastard son who lost the only few people that he loved dearly? I want to know what happens to the wicked and evil Queen Cersei, who had thought she was in charge of everything only to have it thrown in her face. I want to see Jamie redeem himself, and the imp Teriann should be able to redeem himself as well. So may characters, such a huge story and it is PAUSED!!!!!!!
This not knowing will drive me crazy, CRAZY I tell you. I want an ending, I want a happy one for a few, and a miserable and excruciating one for a lot more.  Most of all, I need the characters to be set free.

Having said all that, I should say that this is a mark of a great writer and a wonderful book. Not many books bring out such strong reactions from their readers. I highly recommend it, even though it left me so disappointed.

For more info, click the Wikipedia link here

Monday, September 20, 2010

Sunday, September 19, 2010


I really do not know where this came from, so if you someone out there does, kindly inform me so I can give credit accordingly.

The Science of Swearing

I found this buried deep within my hard disk, but I think I initially got it from here.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

The way it should have been told:

I found this on my hard disk, and I thought I should share.

Friday, September 10, 2010


Ramadan is over and Eid has arrived. This Eid was very anticipated by many mainly because everyone was saying how hot is was and how tough it was. Personally, I found it to be the easiest so far. True, it was tough, but I found that if you do it becas=use you really want to, and not out of a sense of obligation, then it is easy. Ramadan is all about teaching yourself patience, virtue and to watch what you think and how you act. It isn't really about the not consuming food and water as it is to teach yourself descipline. Being patient... well, let us just say that is not one of my strongest points of virtue.

So, Eid is here. Eid Mubarak to all and
تَقَبَّلَ الله ُمِنَّا وَمِنْكُمْ
Taqab-balal-lahu minnaa wa minkum
May Allah accept (the worship) from us and from you!


Saturday, September 4, 2010


It is true what they say " when an old person dies, it is sad; but when a young person dies, it is a tragedy".
Today, a tragedy occured. My friends youngest sibling passed away. I've known her since she was 4, and she turned 21 only a few days ago. She was always a happy kid, all smiles and sunshine. She was gorgeous, from the inside and the outside. She really did have the whole package. She was smart, kind and caring. She was loved by all who ever met her. She really was like a walking ray of sunlight, and today, that sun has forever set.

It really is a tragedy to loose someone so young, but that is God's will. May she rest in peace and may she be in a better place. Till we meet again sweet Sima, you will forever be in our hearts.

"Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you wake in the morning hush,
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there, I did not die!"

Mary Frye (1932) 

May her family find a way to light the dark days they will go through, and find the strength to endure. May her smile never fade from our memories, and may her light always shine in our hearts.