Sunday, January 31, 2010

On the power of goodbye

Everytime you say goodbye to someone, you feel like a part of you goes missing. This isn't a bad thing though, because you didn't really loose that part, you just left it with the other person, and in return, you gain a part of them that you get to keep for yourself. However, how many goodbyes do you have to put up with before you are left with nothing more to give? The tears, they come and they go. Sometimes they show up on the spot, others they wait till you turn your back, take a few footsteps and BAM! the waterworks start.

Everytime you say goodbye, it becomes harder, and yet, easier. It is a weird thing to explain, but I will try. It is always hard to say goodbye to people that mean a lot to you, but somehow, it is bearable thanks to technology and the knowledge that distance really doesnt matter as long as both sides try and work on the friendship.

Ahhh... Goodbyes. They are a fact of life, and we all go through them. Yet, they still suck.


Thursday, January 28, 2010

The beauty of having girlfriends...

... is that they ALWAYS make you feel great:

Hahahahaha, we all mean well, of course, but we still ALL do it.

Monday, January 25, 2010

On some generalizations being SO true...

A worldwide survey was conducted by the UN. The only question asked was:

"Please give your honest opinion about solutions to the food shortage in the rest of the world?"

The survey was a huge failure, In Africa they didn't know what 'food' meant, In India they didn't know what 'honest' meant, In Europe they didn't know what 'shortage' meant, In China they didn't know what 'opinion' meant, In the Middle East they didn't know what 'solution' meant, In South America they didn't know what 'please' meant, And in the USA they didn't know what 'the rest of the world' meant!


From here

Saturday, January 23, 2010

On feeling blue...

I'm nostalgic, and that makes me sad. I hate it when the past plays back in your head over and over again. You can't stop it, you can't force yourself to think of anything else. There is only you, and that mind of yours. I mean, the past is in the past, whatever happened, happened already. No amount of shoulda's, woulda's or coulda's will change anything. Also, you shouldn't dwell on the past, that wont even change anything about the future or the present. Just learn what you can and move on.

Ahhh, songs do this to me. I have been going through old CD's for days now, trying to rip them to my itunes. You know how usually people associate a scent with a memory? Well, every song has a different memory attached to it. The memory is not even of a person, a place or a time. It is of my state of mind at any given point in time. I have so many songs associated with my moods and state of mind, it is depressing!

Now I'm rambling about God-knows-what, did I mention I was feeling sad and blue?

And lonely. I feel all alone. I guess being happy-go-lucky for a month is way too much for me to handle. Watch me slip back slowly, but surely.


Advice that never gets old

This was a big hit in 1999, still makes sense and we should all listen to it every once in a while, just to remember...

Artist: Baz Luhrmann
Album: Something For Everybody
Title: Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of 99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The
long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas
rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering
experienceI will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust
me, in 20 years youll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a
way you
cant grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous
really looked.Youre not as fat as you imagine.
Dont worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real
in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried
mind; the
kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing everyday that scares you
Dont be reckless with other peoples hearts, dont put up with people
who are
reckless with yours.
Dont waste your time on jealousy; sometimes youre ahead, sometimes
behindthe race is long, and in the end, its only with yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in
doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Dont feel guilty if you dont know what you want to do with your
most interesting people I know didnt know at 22 what they wanted to do
their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, youll miss them when theyre gone.
Maybe youll marry, maybe you wont, maybe youll have children, maybe
wont, maybe youll divorce at 40, maybe youll dance the funky chicken
your 75th wedding anniversarywhat ever you do, dont congratulate
too much or berate yourself either your choices are half chance, so
everybody elses. Enjoy your body, use it every way you candont be
afraid of
it, or what other people think of it, its the greatest instrument
youll ever
Danceeven if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you dont follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when theyll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold
on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the
you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do youll fantasize that
you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and
respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Dont expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might
run out.
Dont mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply
Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the
past from
the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and
recycling it for more than
its worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

On.... laundry?

It took a couple of weeks, but now, I can officially state that the scent of Montreal has been washed out of everything I own. Nothing bears its smell now. The bags have been long emptied and stored away. It is weird, but I am ok with it. It is so weird that the separation from Montreal no longer means depression for me. I do not know when that happened, why or how. Maybe it is the fact that I finally made it back to realize that I never really left it? It didn't really change and the people are still awesome and unchanged. It was a comforting trip. I miss you Mony, and I miss everyone that is there, but this time around, I can handle it. I am at peace with this whole thing, which to be honest is freaking me out.

Good bye to the smell of the winter, stale cigarettes, beer and tequila.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

on growing up...

My fantasy has ended and I am back to reality. Gravity did not suck me down this time though, and I was not affected by its strength. This time, I played it according to my rules. I was the queen and the game was mine.

Montreal was awesome, as montreal will always be. The people there are free spirited and strong willed. They are both sweet and gentle, yyet strong and tough at the same time. They truly are amazing.

This time, when I left montreal, I left it on my own terms. I left it knowing that I am at peace with leaving it. The people I care about will always be there, as for the rest... Well, sometimes you need one last encounter to get your closure to feel liberated.

I am both impressed and weirded out by how far I've come within the last 3 years. I didn't know I was capable of any of it. I guess I am emotionally stronger than I give credit to myself for. I also guess my world no longer revolves around the same center. Somewhere down the line, that center shifted and I was too blind to notice, but now I have.

So, welcome back to reality, this time I plan to make the most of it. I had my fun, I went insane and now it is time to set my life ambitions and plans in motion and no longer leave them for another day. Afterall, this is my game and I am queen of the dice.