Tomorrow is almost here, and with it it brings a 95% chance that I might loose a tooth. Why you might say? Well, allow me to explain:
In 2001 I had a root canal done on one of my teeth. However, it kept hurting me and every time I'd bring it up, no one would believe me as I have no roots there. Fast forward a few years and in 2007 I had a toothache that was so bad, no amount of medicine would put an end to it. I went to a dentist and he said that all this pain is because the root canal wasn't done properly. So, I got a second root canal on the SAME tooth. Fast forward yet another few years, and here we are. My tooth STILL hurts and I have this feeling of constant pressure on it. Went to yet another dentist and turns out, the second dentist did not put the correct crown on thus resulting in a gap to form between the tooth and the gums. What this means is that food has been getting stuck in there all this time (thus the pressure) and the plaque built as a result has been eating away at my gums. The solution: open it up and remove the tooth, well, thats a 95% chance but it might as well be a 100%.
What kills me is that I went to 4 dentists before him and no one would even X-ray it. WTF!!!!
This just goes to show you how incompetent and idiotic the as**holes we call dentists here are. Screw them all and may they all rot in Hell.
Amen!
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
I'm here, I'm here...
I know, it has been ages! I am truly sorry but I have been super busy. So much has been going on recently and I had to keep my concentration elsewhere for a while.
On a very happy note, Ranran and Alex got married last Friday! They had a beautiful wedding that was a perfect reflection of their characters and personalities. She looked radiant in her dress and he was dashing in his tux. The night was perfect, not too warm nor too cold, the view amazing and the people's love and happiness for them could be felt. It was truly a 100% joyous occasion.
On a more personal note, I started applying to grad schools. My first application was signed and sealed (umm... more like typed and sent via 0s and 1s). I'm almost done with 3 others, only waiting for my transcripts to get here. It has been 3 weeks, so hopefully they will be here soon.
Apart from that, I have been busy with the news. So much is happening. These are truly interesting times! Plus, this is the first time that something so big happens while I am in the Arab world, and I can view it from an Arabic tv channels' perspective. Tunisia, Egypt, Sudan, Yemen, Jordan... it is insanely exciting!! Of course, it is heartbreaking what all those people went through and still go through on a daily basis just to free themselves from this injustice. I am so proud of us Arabs, I just hope we don't go from bad to worse. So, I am spending it glued to my twitter, tv, radio, Internet... and this is super annoying because it consumes your time without you even realizing it.
These are my updates, I will try to be a better blogger, I promise. However, Clau and Beli... why are YOU not updating?!!!
Power to the people!
On a very happy note, Ranran and Alex got married last Friday! They had a beautiful wedding that was a perfect reflection of their characters and personalities. She looked radiant in her dress and he was dashing in his tux. The night was perfect, not too warm nor too cold, the view amazing and the people's love and happiness for them could be felt. It was truly a 100% joyous occasion.
On a more personal note, I started applying to grad schools. My first application was signed and sealed (umm... more like typed and sent via 0s and 1s). I'm almost done with 3 others, only waiting for my transcripts to get here. It has been 3 weeks, so hopefully they will be here soon.
Apart from that, I have been busy with the news. So much is happening. These are truly interesting times! Plus, this is the first time that something so big happens while I am in the Arab world, and I can view it from an Arabic tv channels' perspective. Tunisia, Egypt, Sudan, Yemen, Jordan... it is insanely exciting!! Of course, it is heartbreaking what all those people went through and still go through on a daily basis just to free themselves from this injustice. I am so proud of us Arabs, I just hope we don't go from bad to worse. So, I am spending it glued to my twitter, tv, radio, Internet... and this is super annoying because it consumes your time without you even realizing it.
These are my updates, I will try to be a better blogger, I promise. However, Clau and Beli... why are YOU not updating?!!!
Power to the people!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
#FF defined
I was thinking today what the term #FF meant in twitter. So, I went onto the internet and I found the most perfect definition, and I share it with you:
From The Oatmeal
Monday, January 24, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
On Art
Art is relative. It is a matter of personal taste. It is also the act of taking an ordinary, every day item and turning it into something beautiful, magical, different and intriguing.
Cheung-ah Hwang does that. He takes a piece of paper, and voila! You have a lovely and fascinating piece of art to display. Pictures from here
Cheung-ah Hwang does that. He takes a piece of paper, and voila! You have a lovely and fascinating piece of art to display. Pictures from here
Monday, January 10, 2011
I finally did it
Today, I decided to quit smoking. My last cigarette was last night and I am having such a hard time staying away from my packet and not lighting up a ciggie. I feel as though I can't breathe due to a stone lying on my chest. I went to exercise today and for the first 30 min, all I could think about was how much I seriously needed a puff. Afterward though, I was fine. I guess the craves have died down a little. It is not constantly on my mind, so that is good. Tomorrow will be a whole different day though, bringing with it a whole new struggle. If I can get through the initial 72 hours, I am sure I will be fine.
What is hard is that smoking is associated with so many memories for me, it was with me through a LOT and I will miss it. I will miss reaching toward that packet, sliding a cigarette out, putting it to my mouth, lighting the lighter and bringing it closer, closer, closer... until you hear the flame hit the cigarette... then INHALE- EXHALE. SIGH....
I also decided to quit alcohol. I know I don't drink often, but when I do drink, I binge drink. Plus alcohol makes me want to smoke and its a vicious cycle that keeps going round and round. No more cigarettes, no more alcohol and I will try my best to live healthy and get fit. I decided this is what I want for the year 2011, it is my year and I will grasp it by the horns.
But first, I have to get through 72 hours of hell... pray for me?
What is hard is that smoking is associated with so many memories for me, it was with me through a LOT and I will miss it. I will miss reaching toward that packet, sliding a cigarette out, putting it to my mouth, lighting the lighter and bringing it closer, closer, closer... until you hear the flame hit the cigarette... then INHALE- EXHALE. SIGH....
I also decided to quit alcohol. I know I don't drink often, but when I do drink, I binge drink. Plus alcohol makes me want to smoke and its a vicious cycle that keeps going round and round. No more cigarettes, no more alcohol and I will try my best to live healthy and get fit. I decided this is what I want for the year 2011, it is my year and I will grasp it by the horns.
But first, I have to get through 72 hours of hell... pray for me?
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Reflection of the year gone by...
A long lost post from some 3 years ago... interesting to note that it still hold true today:
It is past midnight here, making it officially the day before my
birthday. Since i might not have enough time to say good-bye to this year as
the day unfolds, I decided to do this now.
So, this year was a good year overall. These are the things I learnt during the year, not in any specific order:
* You could fall in love with a helpless, little blob of meat.
All it has to do is grab your finger, hold on tight and smile -I'm talking about
both my nephews
*Friends come and go in life, and the true jewels are the ones that stay.
* It takes a lot of work to make friends with
people, it takes just as much work to lose them.
* People change, but that does not mean that things have to change.
* You should try everything in life at least once- as long as you want to try
them, no pressures, no nothing.
* You should trust in God that there is a plan for you, and
that he has not forsaken you.
* You should trust that your parents will
always be
there for you, especially when you least expect them to.
*
you
could love some people so much, yet not like them sometimes, and that is
OK.
* It is alright if you like someone that does not
necessarily like you
back the same way.
* When you are
down, the world will not stand still
and wait until you are alright to go
on. It will leave you were you are and go
on without you.
* Sometimes the people you are closest to are those
furthest away from you by distance, but not by spirit.
*
There is
something larger than any of us out there, and we should believe in
that power
* We should let those we care about know how
much they mean to us as we
do not know when we will see them for the last
time.
* Time flies. It is
scary, but it does. You should
use time wisely, invest in something good and not
look back on time wasted
and regret it. Just learn from what happened and move
on.
* That the greatest of evils is nothing other than 1) not
knowing,
2) not believing 3) not forgiving oneself and finally, 4) not
forgetting.
* That I am growing up- fast- and there is
nothing I could do about it.
* Sometimes, you could be
surrounded by tens of friends, but you realize
that you have never felt
lonelier in your life.
* Sometimes, all you want
to do is
run away from it all.... that feeling is OK.
* That no
matter
how much I just want to give up, I must fight back.
* Freedom and trust
are earned, never given voluntarily,
but always taken away viciously.
*
It is alright to be
selfish every once in a while. In the end, you have to take
care of you.
* Life will go on, no matter how hard you try to stop it
and work against it.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
What's Goin' On?!
Dear friends, followers, random blog readers and the Void that is the internet:
This post suffers from ADD, I apologize in advance =)
So, a new year has begun. Happy New Year everyone, we all got to live to see year go by, we all got a new chance to make positive and sometimes much needed changes and most of all, we all got a fresh, clean, disinfected slate. This is chance to start new, to be the person you have always wanted to be. This is a chance to go to all those places you've dreamed of going to, of seeing the people you never had the time to see but wished you did and to make past mistakes right. In short, this is the chance for new beginnings, and we should all seize it. My new years' resolution? This year I am going to do my best to do what's right for me and by me, regardless of others. I don't mean that in a selfish way, I mean it in a I-will-start-to-put-myself-first-and-watch-out-for-what's-good-for-me kind of way. I will try to be fitter mentally, spiritually and physically. I will try to reconnect with my passion of reading and writing, and I will try venture out of my "bubble". It is a brand new year after all, and I want to do my best at making the best out of it.
I haven't blogged in a while, but not for lack of things to say. I have been busy with work and life. So, here are some of my updates:
* A few friends are in town, some from Canada and one from Lebanon.
* A friend is getting married at the end of the month
* Family is great
* Work is good
* Just joined the gym and will be back on that treadmill sweating it like a pig tomorrow- wish me lots of luck.
I spent NYE at home with the family, I must say, I enjoyed it. I was never a big fan of NYE parties and spending it with loved ones is all that matters. As for the friends visiting from out of town, 2 of them are old high school friends. They are both some of the closest people to me and the dearest to my heart, so it is great that I got to see them again and got to spend this much time with them. Life has been quiet, and I like it that way. I miss my sister and her kids so much though, it really gets me down if i dwell on it for too long, so I try not to. They are doing the best they can though and what is best for them. I am so proud of them for making this move, and so proud that they settled down and made friends quickly. My sister is my hero, really. She is a fighter and a survivor, and I would be lucky if I have an ounce of her strength.
Love you all loads and loads, and may this year be better than all those that went by, but not nearly as great as those to come
XoXo,
Berry
This post suffers from ADD, I apologize in advance =)
So, a new year has begun. Happy New Year everyone, we all got to live to see year go by, we all got a new chance to make positive and sometimes much needed changes and most of all, we all got a fresh, clean, disinfected slate. This is chance to start new, to be the person you have always wanted to be. This is a chance to go to all those places you've dreamed of going to, of seeing the people you never had the time to see but wished you did and to make past mistakes right. In short, this is the chance for new beginnings, and we should all seize it. My new years' resolution? This year I am going to do my best to do what's right for me and by me, regardless of others. I don't mean that in a selfish way, I mean it in a I-will-start-to-put-myself-first-and-watch-out-for-what's-good-for-me kind of way. I will try to be fitter mentally, spiritually and physically. I will try to reconnect with my passion of reading and writing, and I will try venture out of my "bubble". It is a brand new year after all, and I want to do my best at making the best out of it.
I haven't blogged in a while, but not for lack of things to say. I have been busy with work and life. So, here are some of my updates:
* A few friends are in town, some from Canada and one from Lebanon.
* A friend is getting married at the end of the month
* Family is great
* Work is good
* Just joined the gym and will be back on that treadmill sweating it like a pig tomorrow- wish me lots of luck.
I spent NYE at home with the family, I must say, I enjoyed it. I was never a big fan of NYE parties and spending it with loved ones is all that matters. As for the friends visiting from out of town, 2 of them are old high school friends. They are both some of the closest people to me and the dearest to my heart, so it is great that I got to see them again and got to spend this much time with them. Life has been quiet, and I like it that way. I miss my sister and her kids so much though, it really gets me down if i dwell on it for too long, so I try not to. They are doing the best they can though and what is best for them. I am so proud of them for making this move, and so proud that they settled down and made friends quickly. My sister is my hero, really. She is a fighter and a survivor, and I would be lucky if I have an ounce of her strength.
Love you all loads and loads, and may this year be better than all those that went by, but not nearly as great as those to come
XoXo,
Berry
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
On Crankiness
Thanks to jet lag, this is exactly how I am feeling nowadays. I am so cranky, it is driving me insane. I'm fine until I suddenly crash. That's jet lag I suppose, you just have to wait till you are over it.
Being back is bittersweet. When I am here, I want to be there, when I 'm there, I want to be here. It is a vicious cycle and there really is no solution. I wasn't supposed to be back so soon, but one day I was up late at night and it occurred to me that it was time to move on. It wasn't an emotionally overbearing thought, just this gut feeling that made me realize that I was ready, and I was. So I called up my travel agent at 3am and changed my ticket. It was hard breaking the news to others, but I had to do whats best for me at the end of the day.
It is good to be back though, I didn't realize how attached to the luxury this part of the world offers until I left it all behind for a couple months. Sure, it has its down-sides, and many many of those, but when it comes to the big picture it is still a pretty one.
I have so many more shattered and fragmented thoughts, I am too tired to share though. Maybe soon!
=)
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