Monday, November 30, 2009

I really could not agree more:

Click on this link from the Egyptian Sandmonkey's blog to ready about Gigimo!

If it is possible to fall in love with the way somebody else's mind works, then I am in LOVE!

=)

Monday, November 23, 2009

Saturday, November 21, 2009

It has been a while...

... and no, I haven't forgotten about my blog.

Thing is, I really don't have much to blog about. I have been busy making some changes to my lifestyle, i.e. changes that actually have to do with me, me and only me. I thought it was about time I started looking out for myself and after myself. No one else will do it for me, right?

What are those changes, you might ask? Well, I am now minimizing any contact with people who will just bring negative vibes into my life. I am negative enough, and I no longer want to handle any more negativity. I am also going to the gym more often, not to get thin but to get healthy. I have cut back on my ciggie smoking and am now more active overall. At night, I turn off ALL electronics, which sadly and most importantly also includes my cell phone. The first couple of nights were rough, but now I think I sleep better because of it. No blinking lights of phone calls, or the faint pings and tings of sms's, bbm's or e-mails waking me up at all hours of the night. I have relinquished control and I am adamant on finally getting my sleep pattern to work out. I do not want to be an insomniac any more... it is draining me. I am trying a more zen-like approach to life where I will just let it be. Whatever will happen, is bound to happen and there is no use worrying about the past or the future. I can not change the past, only learn from it, and as for the future... well, there is nothing I can do about that either. I have decided to let my life unravel. I jumped on the train and now I am going to try and enjoy this ride it is taking me on. So far, its frightining, but that is a good thing, I hope.

So that is what I have been up to. I have been busy focusing on me, and I think that after 25 years of living on this earth, it is about time I do that.

= )

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Thought of the day

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" I forgive you for not being the person I wanted you to be. I forgive you and I set you free."
- Louise L. Hay

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Tuesday, November 3, 2009

On things that make me sad...

1) Old photos. Be they for people I know or not, the older they are, the sadder and more intrigued I become. Think of all the things that happened to these few people forever frozen in time, doing whatever they might be doing. If its people I know, it saddens me to know what once was, what once could have been and what is now. It is just sad...

2) Airports. Doesn't matter whether you are crying and sniffing your goodbyes, or screaming and screeching your hellos, airports always make me sad. It is filled with contradictions. Hopeful people, happy people, sad people, depressed people, new arrivals, never coming backers, tourists, natives, healthy people, sick people, people that missed their flights, people that wish they missed their flights and so on. Airports are just depressing places no matter why you are there.

3) Old books. Especially ones I love and adore. I love the fact that they take me back through time and space and transform my surroundings into other places like magic. However, it is sad to read a new book, although comforting. It combines the feelings that i get from old photos and airports. No matter what, it is always static, stuck in a time loop, and no matter how excited you are to see it an read it again, you know that your goodbyes are just around the corner.

4) Songs. Well, certain songs, but mostly ones that I can relate to. It saddens me that a complete stranger can better describe what I am feeling at any point in time than I ever can.

5) Old notes written by people. A person's handwriting is as unique as their voice. Sometimes, all it takes is one letter and bam! you are back to square one. You can be missing them, loving them, hating them, indifferent towards them... it doesnt matter. Those feelings will come back anyway.

6) Old people who are alone. That site does more than upset me, it saddens me. Old people are so cool! It is a shame that they should ever be left by themselves. We should invest in them more. They gave up their youth for families, country or even dreams. Now it is time for someone to take care of them and befriend them.

7) A sick, homeless cat. We have loads of that here, and it is such a pitiful and sad sight.

8) Graduations. Yes, graduations depress me. Hundreds of people gather together to celebrate what they think is a huge accomplishment. What they choose not to realize is that thousands of others are doing just that. Dreams are not as easily accomplished as they think and life.... well, life is tougher than they can ever imagiine.

9) New Years' eve. Its the saying goodbye to the old and welcoming the new. It is weird, but it depresses me.

10) Culture, Heritage and Society. These three often combine to produce the stupidest, most idiotic, masochistic and chauvinistic ideas, especially in the Arab society. It saddens me that in this day and age, we still can not look past tradition and culture and see things as they truly are, not as what we should see them as.

Those are the top ten off the top of my head. No reason for them, but felt like sharing.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

My newest song obsession:

Lyrics to Day 'n' Nite by Kid Cudi :

[Verse 1:]
Day n nite...
I toss and turn, I keep stressin' my mind, mind.
I look for peace, but see I don't attain.
What I need for keeps this silly game we play, play.
Now look at this...
Madness the magnet keeps attracting me, me.
I try to run, but see I'm not that fast.
I think the first but surely finish last, last.

[Chorus:]
Cause day n nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite
He's all alone through the day n nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite, ah ah at nite.
Day n nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone, some things will never change.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite, ah ah at nite

[Verse 2:]
Hold the phone...
The lonely stoner missed his solo doe low.
He's on the move, can't seem to shake the shake.
Within his dreams he sees the life he made.
Made.
The pain is deep...
A silent sleeper, you won't hear a peep, peep.
The girl he wants don't seem to want him too.
It seems the feelings that she had are through.
Through.

[Chorus:]
Cause day n nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite
He's all alone through the day n nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite, ah ah at nite.
Day n nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone, some things will never change.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite, ah ah at nite

[Verse 3:]
Slow mo...
When the tempo slows up and creates that new, new.
He seems alive, though he is feelin blue.
The sun is shinin man he's super cool.
Cool...
The lonely nites, they fade away he slips into his white Nikes.
He smokes a clip and then he's on the way,
To free his mind in search of...
To free his mind in search of...
To free his mind in search of...

[Chorus:]
Day n nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite
He's all alone through the day n nite.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite, ah ah at nite.
Day n nite.
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at nite.
He's all alone, some things will never change.
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night, ah ah at night.
[ Day 'n' Nite Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]

On cuteness...

Well, as I was surfing the web today, I came across the sweetest, cutest and funniest fruit-related website ever. You really should give it a click. Fruit will never be boring again for it has a sense of humour!!!





 

 

Are they just not the cutest ever?!!

Everyone together now: Ooooiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Monday, October 19, 2009

On books...

... and once again, I find myself blogging about books, or rather, their endings. I can not explain just how anxious I become when I reach the last 100- pages of a book. I start to get depressed, ill-tempered and I lose all sense of humour. I just become this angry person, and all that because when I reach the end of a book, I am overcome with dread. I want to finish the story, I want to know what happens. I want to help the characters escape/survive/celebrate/mourne etc, but I also do not want to lose their company. I guess it is just stilly, but every time I read a book, I feel as though the characters are real, they live, breathe, move, eat, sleep, and talk in my mind. I can see them clearly in my mind's eye, and I get attached to them. There really is no other word to decribe this feeling but attachement. They become friends by the time I finish reading the book, and saying goodbye to them, well, it just brings up bad memories. I hate saying goodbye to people I care about. It is probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, and I am not even considered an emotional person! Everyone thinks of me as toughskinned and aloof, and yet, the though of saying goodbye sometimes brings me to tears- when I am all alone, of course!

And so, back to my point, another book ends, another story is closed. It is a comfortable thought knowing that you can revisit whenever you want, yet also disturbing because you know the characters are caught in this vicious cycle that is stuck on repeat.

In case you are wondering, I just finished reading The Cloudmages Trilogy by S.L Farrell.

Out.

Friday, October 9, 2009

When did that happen?

I have become a slob.

I do not read anything other than pure fiction. I do not pick uo the newpaper or a magazine, I do not watch T.V... My only connections to the "real" world are the few people I see on a day to ay basis.

Meh...