Saturday, September 25, 2010

On being human...

I have issues, I know that. I am working on resolving them, I promise. I am aware that the past is the past, and what has been done has been done. There is n point in dwelling over the past, no use crying over spilt milk. Just take a deep breath, let go and move on. All that I know, and so much more. However, every once in a while, I slip back into being your average human, and I dwell. I dive deep down where memories and thoughts I refuse to conjure up just come flooding up and out. Emotions I've been in control of escape me, and explode. I explode. One minute I am fine, the next? The next minute I am an insane person going having a fit about something that could not be changed. It is as simple and as complicated as that. I even have an out of body experience when that happens. I can see and hear myself saying/thinking things and I think to myself, "what the hell are you doing? Move on already!"

Why is moving on so hard?

Why is it harder to move on from things inflicted on us by our beloved ones?

Weird, yet so................................................................................................................................ human.

3 comments:

  1. i so get that feeling... but rational thought and emotions do not always get along very well.


    sending you inter-hugs

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  2. very true... emotions are fickle things to get along with anyway

    inter-hugging you back

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  3. As you mentioned... we are humans after all. I sometimes dwell on things I should have done ad especially said, and think of the possible consequences that would come out of that. If only we had a remote control to go back in time...

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