On being fine

I am:

tired,
drained,
fatigued,
lonely,
sad,
whole,
fragmented,
happy,
silent,
strong,
indifferent,
fighting,
trying,
sane,
weak,
surrendering,
upbeat,
optimistic,
shattered,
pessimistic,
hopeful,
conflicted,
sure,
envious,
crazy,
doubtful,
joyful,
sorrowful,
bitchy,
sweet,
loud,
vindictive,
interested,
forgiving,
selfish,
caring.

I:

Want,
need,
require,
demand,
relinquish,
love,
aspire,
give up,
believe,
hate,
dream,
quit.


Now bottle up all those feelings, mix them together, and you will get how I feel on any given day.... The one word I use to summarize all that: Fine. I am Fine.